See Yu See Me

Where I see myself

2012-01-27T06:14:00.001-08:00

To jumpe

Fua

2012-01-27T06:13:00.001-08:00

Dreams

2012-01-27T06:02:00.001-08:00

I feel like I am a housewives, I basically do everything. Because I hate people bossing me around. So silently, I finish all the works before anybody could say anything. No hustle. Not many voices. Silent, clean & finish like that. So I've decided, after knowing any man for 6 months I will go on with marriage, that's it. 23 this year, wah so big. Gonna be in melacca with my beloved girlfriends jaja & aina, mini trip after Japan trip last time. Now that I just started blogging again, haven't had any post on my beautiful 10days trip to Tokyo, Japan. Should write one on that. Intern in few days. Excited for something new, wuhooooooo! So nice bro, can't wait. And I wish my family plans for umrah during my intern could be considered by my advisor. Amin. Really need that spiritual internal therapy. I've finished all the tv series, like omg every episode. Freak like that, the feeling of watching something is so much relaxing than actually go to the mall, shopping and all. Gosh, I'm old. 2 broke girls very very funny. I like that tomboy-go-tough girl. Very cool. Hee. My phone x bebunyi langsung. After dpt my placement for my intern, rejecting, accepting here and there. Terus dh x bebunyi. Ha ha. And dah lame x top up. Lol. No point for that. I have become more reserved & distance myself. Happy like that. Is it? Again no hustle & x annoying. Fuhhh. K bye.

Pavement

2012-01-23T04:16:00.001-08:00

Happiness is easy, Pain is hard.
Love is easy, Hearbroken is hard.
Yu are easy, I am truly hard.
Do yu see it through the eyes?
Path we are walking..
Everyone share different history,
But one thing for sure, we want a bright future.
Love is subjective.
It's how we felt inside, that's crucial.
Here my heart speak,
He says I bring the love to yu.

say prayer

2012-01-22T21:09:00.001-08:00

Nothing excite me more than babies, family & love. The joy of having love that will never fade is very essential to me. How I wish things like this could last. How time constraint would not distance us. In this buzy life it's hard to have family's affection. Some are just buzy shouting, correcting & judging instead of just sit together eat laugh & just love. One day when I have my own home, I would stick them all together. Blerghhhh. Going to pd later, enjoy some beach with beloved big family. Last night BBQ was so awesome. I'm the chicken chef, BBQ ing while people eat. There were so much food, kiddos, loud noises, laughter & love. Couldn't ask for more. Au revoir.

Self obsess

2012-01-20T02:16:00.001-08:00

Hm, see I'm gonna be here everyday. Lalala. Cleaning up the whole house is exhausting. I don't understand why man hates cleaning. Hm, I should marry a guy who is clean freak. Whoever it is. It would be so much easier to clean up together, cook together. And not be the slave for mens. It's always like that, when yu get married all yu do is serve your man. Yes I know it's not a big problem & I don't mind serving my man. But at least if the man have the courtesy to not make mess in the first place & the thoughts of helping would be nice. Well, yu see here, both will be working so why not both help around in the house. Just saying. Y do I even talk like this I do not know. Hmmmmmmmm. Ps: I need money for vacay. Will see how intern at mas will look like, if not that buzy & hectic, will try to make rooms to teach small kids swimming, extra income & maybe also teach tuisyen part time. More extra money. Can't wait to start observe places for my master, can't wait can't wait.

Internship

2012-01-19T04:14:00.001-08:00

Hey heyy helo, I have finally decided to do my internship at mas. After all those hustle. Deciding & applying last last endup with mas. Maybe my excitement to travel kot. Hm. So now, my bba in finance finally over. Like so fast meh! Crazayyyy! Not much to be miss since I stay home most of the time, go class, go back from class. Go gym, go swim, go swim training etc. not much. Just me myself & I alone time. But guess what I felt very happy, thou. Despite seeing people with gangs & all. I was more with headset & iPod on the go. Well sad? Hm no. Just more laid back & doesn't have to hustle with people that much. So what now? Hm. Trying very hard to improve my relationship with mum. Trying to please her takes a lot of hard work. No one can break me except her. I guess. The power of mother. Hm. I'll be going to umrah insyaAllah, if I manage to get 10days of cuti from my advisor. Hm pray hard for that to happen. What do I see myself in 5 years? Probably finish paying my car lagi power lagi best, start saving up for house/apartment. Half way saving up for Euro trip. Em I must aim, Euro trip by the age of 26? & then I shall find a real man & get married. Wahhh, as if life is as easy like that one. But well, we got to plan what we got to plan, right? So now I have install blogger apps. So I'll be seeing myself here a lot, perhaps. Should talk more about career, health, food & travel. That's all maybe. No personal stuff. It's kindda hard to delete my oldest post, let the past be history. Ya I know, lots of emo stuff in those days. But well, who cares? Ive move on & over it already. So now, chow Betty, gonna start reading my chicken soup for the soul. Au revoir. Ps: I cook today! Many more days to see myself in the kitchen to cook for the whole family. Finger cross. Amin.

Im back

2012-01-19T03:54:00.001-08:00

I wish no one reads my blog so I could write anything I want. & they say 'so why yu go public if you don't want any readers?' so I say 'sukati Aku la' so leggooo new year new things to be focus on! Helloooooooo 2012!

fish

2011-12-23T09:23:00.000-08:00

it was weird and funny at the same time. many things i have accomplish this year, 1st time ever i entered a swim competition and won bronze for 100m breast stroke. it was the greatest feeling. as for love, havent found 1 yet, i know i am going to have 1, someday. i just knew it. ill be having lots of babies, gonna love my hubby for eternity and have a swimming pool at the backyard so everyday i and my babies can swim.

December here we go, oh joyy!

2011-11-29T03:43:00.001-08:00

how crazy after how many months, im back here.

lalalalalala.

oh my star

2011-02-13T08:07:00.001-08:00

It doesnt make any sense of having everything in ya life but having no one to share it with, say its many, but there is no one, i am lost in the translation of the meaning of happiness, what are the purpose that triger all the joy inside, when all my joy is taken away, theres no way of coming back, hold my breathe, trying to catch the glimpse of yu, and i wonder, when does it all make any sense, hear my dead language, i am broken,

now hush baby

2011-02-03T23:03:00.000-08:00

im gonna leave yu fer quite sometime. see yu here:

http://twitter.com/Qlaycob

http://qeelsaoki.tumblr.com/

happy life ahead people. neh screw that, try to survive ok peops, hang in there :)

i die

2011-01-02T08:24:00.000-08:00

i feel the big blue ocean drowning me, i see the sun shine on me, i see people screaming, i see the world falls upside down, but the most scary of all, i see myself lost, trying to reach heaven, but i stumble down, i fall into the hands of evil, went straight to hell, nauzubillah, i am scared

true story

2010-12-30T09:36:00.000-08:00

how i miss yu every single days of my life.

Whiteshoes

2010-12-26T07:30:00.000-08:00

http://whiteshoesmsia.blogspot.com/

http://www.facebook.com/pages/WhiteShoes/136573149733292

my new bos, asked me to promote this. present you the work of art of ezzat asyiq.

come support :)

people we are booked on 19th, puzab getting married!

2010-12-26T07:29:00.000-08:00

Putri Zulaikha AminFarah Iqbal

january, then february!! I'll see most of Chescos againn weehoooo OMG I feel so bad wei. Aku nak buat FB event jemput but kad belum siap tapi korang dah konon2 'save the date' for my wedding kan kann?? Kalau blm pleaseeee free kan the 19th!

Theme purple tau weiiiii (or something lilac kot) please comeee!! and btw, aku blm hbs study lagi. 1 mac aku balik melb hehe :)

While 2010 still last

2010-12-26T07:26:00.000-08:00

I've lived. I've really really lived. I've failed. I've been devastated. I've been broken. I've gone to hell and back. And I've also known joy. And passion. And I've had a great love.

ps: still, appreciating every single days of my life ;]

im no angel

2010-12-24T09:06:00.001-08:00

i curse yu till the day i die

face me

2010-12-24T09:02:00.000-08:00

I hope u come back to me. Not to be with me, but to fix the damage that you have done to my entire soul.

from the movie, eat pray love

2010-11-30T07:15:00.000-08:00

so i open my eyes tonight,

i was at the cross border.

one feat trying to cross, while my back was being pull from behind.

i saw unfamiliar faces,

i realize it was just a dream.

"Do you want your belly pressed against this person's belly forever --or not?"

"So tonight I reach for my journal again. This is the first time I’ve done this since I came to Italy. What I write in my journal is that I am weak and full of fear. I explain that Depression and Loneliness have shown up, and I’m scared they will never leave. I say that I don’t want to take the drugs anymore, but I’m frightened I will have to. I am terrified that I will never really pull my life together.
In response, somewhere from within me, rises a now-familiar presence, offering me all the certainties I have always wished another person would say to me when I was troubled. This is what I find myself writing on the page:

I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long. I will stay with you. If you need the medication again, go ahead and take it—I will love you through that, as well. If you don’t need the medication, I will love you, too. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and Braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.

Tonight, this strange interior gesture of friendship—the lending of a hand from
me to myself when nobody else is around to offer solace—reminds me of something that happened to me once in New York City. I walked into an office building one afternoon in a hurry, dashed into the waiting elevator. As I rushed in, I caught an unexpected glance of myself in a security mirror’s reflection. In that moment, my brain did an odd thing—it fired off this split-second message: “Hey! You know her! That’s a friend of yours!” And I actually ran forward toward my own reflection with a smile, ready to welcome that girl whose name I had lost but whose face was so familiar. In a flash instant of course, I realized my mistake and laughed in embarrassment at my almost doglike confusion over how a mirror works. But for some reason that incident comes to mind again tonight during my sadness in Rome, and I find myself writing this comforting reminder at the bottom of the page.

Never forget that once upon a time, in an unguarded moment, you recognized yourself as a FRIEND…

I fell asleep holding my notebook pressed against my chest, open to this most recent assurance. In the morning when I wake up, I can still smell a faint trace of depression’s lingering smoke, but he himself is nowhere to be seen. Somewhere during the night, he got up and left. And his buddy loneliness beat it, too."

Voomerang

2010-11-26T04:18:00.002-08:00

coming back, weyy ITS COMING BACK :)

LOVE

love is a boomerang

2010-11-26T04:18:00.001-08:00

he who have a otak more than the nafsu got 10marks :)

Get back to the start

2010-11-26T04:11:00.000-08:00

i wanna do it my way.

yu listen, i get excited easily. i laugh crazily.

i laugh the most especially towards the lamest jokes i heard.

i love what other people hate.

n hate what other people love.

yu know, im always excited and love the process of getting it.

but i really hated the process of keeping it.

guess, i never love full-heartedly.

or i might just love the drama.

love is not blind nor stupid. at least i refuse to be one.

i guess we need to stop saying love is stupid&blind,

and tell ourselves "dey tambi, diri sendri yang keling"

dnt say your love out loud.

so lalok.

its time for us to forgive chris brown :)

True NPH said. new is always good :)

if i could stop obsessing i would, believe me

2010-11-24T04:27:00.000-08:00

hatred

2010-11-23T05:18:00.001-08:00

i should have love cooking, but i hate learning it from yu. i hate her.

i should have love again, but i hate loving yu. i hate him.

i should have love being a friend, but i hate becoming a friend to yu, i hate her.

i should have love being nice, but i hate acting nice with yu, i hate him.

i should have forgive human being, but i hate forgiving yu, i hate her.

i should have let go, but i hate letting yu go, i hate him.

yours truly fault.

one day, im gonna combine all,

i will love cooking, love again, a good friend, become nicer, forgiving people and letting go.

for now, i just hate all.

time, i need yu.

Bruno Mars - Grenade (live)

2010-11-22T07:28:00.000-08:00

merepekxx

2010-11-22T06:14:00.000-08:00

i really love my job, (tp sedikit x suke sbb kene wake up early, cnt sleep longer n sometimes traffic jam pissed me off) anyhoooworking environment is awesome, those guys are crazy bunch of people who are absolutely nuts and lalok, i always being hard on myself when it comes to work, but having them around, it makes me relax a lil bit, ( but still i cant seat back and relax that much,mcm x keruan if in working environment being very relaxx sgt) tak tahu kenapa kat tempat keja, mesti ade org ajak kahwin, funny la, kat prudential dulu pun same, org kt tmpat keje sume mesti pk kawen aje, mcm mane la if dh hbes blaja x jumpe sape sape lg, mesti time kerja jd mcm drg, ajak ajak org laen kawen, hehe, sbtu and ahd i went to see those guys play rugby, jumpe wink wink, dubat n many more, rindu betul kwn kwn melaka, sumorang dah buat hal sendiri sekrang, hurmm, rindu betul makanan murah kat melaka, dhla sedap, last nyte watch harry potter with family, sumpah tetido dlm cinema sbb mengantuk gila, sbtu ahd bgn pg tgk rugby tuh, buhsanlaa harry, i dnt knoe y i decided to go, maybe sbb i love seating in cinema eating popcorn kot, xde bf nak ajak pg tgk movie, sooo like, family plans to watch harry, follow ajelaaa, now i know la a bit wat harry is all about, zzzzzzz, i wonder rugby today sape menang, x pg tgk pulak, after those game, we went berpeleseran like crazy, maen kt toy r us, like crazy kids, nntih birthday nak teddy bear lotso, tapi xtau nak suruh sp belikan, ahhh beli untuk diri sndri jela bufday nntih, hurm bile nak dpt gaji. nak beli ipod touch. blnje fmily n laen kene masuk asb. nntih evry sem kene keje, naK beli umah sendiri b4 umur 28, pastu kalau xde calon nak kawen. nak amek anak angkat, HEHE, k xoxo.

do not look back

2010-11-22T06:11:00.000-08:00

Being nice to someone yu dnt like is not hypocrite, Its the process of growing up, the time where we learn to put aside our touchy emotions & move forward, love.

i only pass by

2010-11-22T05:54:00.001-08:00

There were d days, where i gave my heart,body & soul.
N i got beautiful lies in return.
Forgive me lord, i was young n stupid.
Never again,i open my heart for any other man.
Because life aint forever n short for me.
May i be in heaven with u,i pray.
Let me b alone,whatever it takes.
I shall pass despair as long as i have u,my only god.
For all the strength u gave me for my mind,heart,body n soul.
I am grateful. Yu make me strong.
Let go of my soul for human. Gimme my whole soul for u.
I conquer emptiness.
I will walk straight.
Because yu gave me lights.
Yu, my only GOD.

setia

2010-11-22T04:58:00.001-08:00

delete twitter sekarang, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, stay loyal to blog ;]

2010

2010-11-20T10:31:00.000-08:00

for 2010 to be over. the toughest year yet so far.

not at all

2010-11-20T07:44:00.000-08:00

look me in the eye.

2010-11-20T06:09:00.001-08:00

Kau kata cinta. Tiap kali kau dusta.

Kau cinta aku, kau bersama dia. Ku luluh.

Jantung ku berdegup. Kau butakan hati ku.

Berhentila dustai aku. Aku perlu cinta.

Cinta yang kau curangi. Dalam sedih ku diam.

Dalam tawa ku menangis. Ku simpan dalam.

Hingga kau menghilang. Jauh,jauh kau dariku.

Cintaku dikau nodai. Kaula sang suria di akhir zaman.

KAU HARUS MATI (HAHAHA,line ni tak sebenarnya, NI BODO NI)

ps: kunun2 try nak start buat lirik dlm bm, salmi kate bole dpt rm500 ;]

harus lebihh mendalam, cuba lagi.

gadgets

2010-11-19T16:51:00.000-08:00

amazing i tweett tweet now :) and i have no idea how to cantek cantek kan nyee. follow me & ill follow yu :)

http://twitter.com/Qeells

believe in me

2010-11-18T07:37:00.000-08:00

2 people who are meant to be together, eventually they'll find their way back.

;0

2010-11-18T04:58:00.000-08:00

They Say- Chris Brown

They say im changing
because there all doing the same thing

i bet you think that id fly away from you but i wouldn't do that
now they say that im crazy coz i wanna do it my way
Lets take it back to the start.

lets remind you that you can't go wrong for knowing that there talking what they dont no

and all of them sound the same

your so quick to judge someone

but they thought of me different before guess im sore from now.

guess what they say.

he's back

2010-11-18T04:53:00.001-08:00

THEY SAY- CHRIS BROWN ;]

sounds good when it rhymes

2010-11-18T02:50:00.000-08:00

they talk crap. they talk rubbish. they even curse some more. (some i never heard before)

they give drama, they even create new drama every single hours, not just day.

it is hilarious! and it is fun!! & funny ;]

i say; the best thing about life is when the drama is on you,

& finally its not on me. (i am jealous now "bb")

NOW, i could seat back and relax.

and i laugh like crazy,

and every single minute i smile (awek mude they say if smile smile always)

see, yu are now the crappy old man/old lady.

and im the new born baby with big fat smile.

(yupp, i am pretty fat now, well baby, i am big fat lady with a big fat laugh)

(yu know aa, happy people always fat one, i know you're jealous already!)

you are my new joker. & i love laughing at yu '

be my pilot

2010-11-17T06:52:00.000-08:00

i am now working at canon's headquaters, & Everyday i had bad affairs with traffic jam, VLAH

workloads

2010-11-17T06:50:00.000-08:00

I like it when u hated me,it gives me super power.

yu know that movie

2010-11-17T06:47:00.000-08:00

so he fcuked her, and be with another her,

and he sings ' whata wonderful world'

BIJAK KAN DIE? zzz

screw yu big fat man

2010-11-13T21:33:00.001-08:00

im gonna start working monday till friday.

and help ezzat with his company establishment on the weekends.

im gonna work my ass off.

the key to success is not having any man behind your back

that will destroy yu and pull ya back.

behind every women's success = there will be no man except their dads.

(as for me, fer now) till then. x0x0

Vlahh

2010-11-12T21:40:00.001-08:00

Healthy food is expensive!

abc

2010-11-12T20:20:00.001-08:00

Yu destroy me, & God will destroy yu.

I hurt yu, & God will hurt me

Sugar high

2010-11-12T15:40:00.000-08:00

If you fall asleep down by the water baby i’ll carry you all the way home

everybodies gotta love someone but i just wanna love you dear

everybodys gotta feel something i just wanna feel you my dear

i know its hard i know its harrdd i know its hard to be in this position

if they stop loving you i wont stop loving you

if they stop needing you i’ll still need you my dear

you gotta believe me you gotta belive me when i say

the words forever

and whatever comes your way we’ll still me here together

i know its hard i know its hard but i understand you just take my hand dear

If you fall asleep down by the water baby i’ll carry you all the way home

Random awesome

2010-11-12T15:37:00.000-08:00

?

2010-11-10T06:30:00.000-08:00

where do i move from here?

Part 2.

2010-11-10T05:38:00.000-08:00

Love The Way You Lie (Part 2)

On the first page of our story, the future seems so bright.
And this thing turned out so evil, I don’t know why I’m still surprised.
Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take death to new extremes.
But you’ll always be my hero, even though you lost your mind
Now this gravel in our voices, glass is shattered from the fight.
In this tug of war, you’ll always win, even when I’m right.
Cause you feed me fables from your hand,
With violet words and empty threats and it’s sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied.
So maybe I’m a masochist
I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave.
Til the walls are goin’ up in smoke with all our memories.
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I’ll be sorry that you
pushed me into the coffee table last night so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I’ll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I’m nothing, I’m so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you’ll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we’re on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other’s backs
that we’ll have each other’s backs, ’cause we’re that lucky
together, we move mountains, let’s not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who’s countin’
I may have hit you three times, I’m startin’ to lose count
but together, we’ll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we’re nuts, but I refused counselin’
this house is too huge, if you move out I’ll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain’t shit you can do about it
with you I’m in my f–kin’ mind, without you, I’m out it

U smile, I cry

2010-11-10T05:34:00.000-08:00

Behind every angriness there are always some love. Sadness inspire me ;)

To patience.

2010-11-06T02:48:00.000-07:00

We're holding on to the pain because it's all we have left.

We don't have to. We have a choice.

We need to know that our most dangerous enemies are the ones we never knew we had.

See Yu See Me

2010-11-03T04:26:00.000-07:00

FEEL MY HEARTBEAT ;)

Fairytales

2010-11-02T16:58:00.001-07:00

yesterday i found out that my previous ex schoolmate and forever batch-mate are getting married. how excited i am? VERYYY EXCITED. yu know, i REALLY LOVE WEDDINGS, MARRIAGE, and everything that came after that. i would like to discuss more on this, but i have two more papers to go. must cau cin cau and go studyyy! wish me luckk. i misss writing a very long long post, up until i heard something so good about perkahwinan ini, rase very teruja, that man is the real man, because it was never easy to get puzab's attention. ohh yure just a lucky men. true puzab said "serikandi untuk serikanda". woowww. i wish i was more a serikandi. rather than god knows what i am actually now. but im taking my time here. taking my own sweet time, to define myself, my life. i will eat pray and love again :) Life is good. i just knew it. my time will come, and it would be the bestest rainbow i ever taste and dream off. lets go through the rain first shall we. i walk with yu hands in hand. we'll make it through the rain.

yeah yu still my heart away

2010-11-01T10:57:00.001-07:00

how hot is hot?

2010-11-01T10:51:00.001-07:00

the man

2010-11-01T09:29:00.000-07:00

best gila pg exam dgn ayah, and ayah sendiri yang jadi pemeriksa hall ;)

ayah soo comelss!

smile with his eyes

2010-11-01T09:24:00.000-07:00

i met a man, a gentleman, never knew those guy still exist, my hair now is getting longer, sooo cunness, (yeahh, perasan like that) tapi bestt, bole jadiii juon rambut pnjangggss, And that man. FUHHH,

cutie pie

2010-11-01T09:18:00.000-07:00

ohh that subs boyy is a hottie, he melt my heart ;)

yeepii!

2010-11-01T09:17:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow must go swimming and play new sport; boling padang ;)

sound of teett

2010-11-01T09:14:00.000-07:00

i have stomach ache since i ate too many baskin robins, pnat suh ayah beli smlm and today after habes exam hentam mcm org gile, balas dendam n endupp kesaketan keperutan, never thought studying at night with them would be so fun, and i am now attending guitar class with cikgu bem, soo cool, hehe :)

kindergardenxx

2010-11-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

3 paper down, 2 to go, hayaaaaaaaakkk! anyhoo, have yu ever wonder, how some new people can be so close and some old people can be so far away, people change or did we eventually dissapear from one and another, sometimes i miss my old days with some old friends, but in the same time i love being around new friends, anyhooo, old or new, doesnt matter, as long as they are my friends, BETTER LESS THAN HAVING TOO MANY THAT GAVE NOTHING, YES NO?

liar as a part time job

2010-11-01T09:07:00.000-07:00

KASIHAN KAU PERLU MENIPU UNTUK BAHAGIA

taste so goodd

2010-10-29T08:53:00.000-07:00

Its the new smell. anna sui rock me ;)

shot gun

2010-10-28T09:47:00.001-07:00

fix my wounds.

He is too comelssssxx

2010-10-28T09:23:00.000-07:00

its my first time watching "lagenda budak setan" i am a big fan of farid kamil. but i dont know y, up until 5minutes ago, barula i watched it. (yes again, kuno like that) and it was the newest tears after a loooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggg time not having my nose red, face watering and all. vlahvlahvlah, that weak weak human always do, whenever they feel @#$%%@@@#$ (or is it not that long?) dont know, dont really care lah. but daymm, hard time betul farid went through. aloo cyan cyan die :) habes merah mate aku, ok baru best tido penat nanges. goodnytezzzzzzzzzzz. (glew gilerww typez like this zzzzz thingy, org zaman sekarang. lol)

Techno advancement

2010-10-28T09:17:00.000-07:00

yu know how people fancy all this new cool technology, well, i am resistant to change. im not going to twitt or thumblr or whatever they are using now. i am kuno like that :) i missssssssssssssssssssssssssssss the old time where people use to write letters and send snail mail, hantar postman with setem! sooooooooooooooo soooo cool like that! compared to what we have now. dont u just miss the old traditional wayss? i want to ride my bicycle and play ice and water! maybe i should have live in ibu's era.

hoorayy ya man

2010-10-26T20:16:00.000-07:00

today is a good day because today is the first final paper of My Degree :) LETS GET THE PARTAY STARTED!

Falling in that category

2010-10-25T04:17:00.000-07:00

the most happiest outside have the most loneliness inside. vice versa.

ps: sometimes u cant say it does not happen, when it does. swept the tears.

fake all yu want, its yourself ur lying to. i know it, because i do it all the time.

on the other hand, ur gonna say, "wth, im too awesome to care"

goodie luckie

2010-10-24T10:34:00.001-07:00

ya man, never in million years will i forgive.

Monday blues

2010-10-24T10:29:00.000-07:00

it always rain, no no. more to gloomy, than heavy rain, cats and dogs they say, but when the sunshine eventually came out, it became so special, despite all the rainy and stormy day. i hope it last longer. i mean the rainbows. i sure need it. well, everyone need that. its a happy life. so long.

goodnight

2010-10-23T04:12:00.000-07:00

I love evryday suprise from the future that have been set up for me. Sometimes its like an awesome blind dates. But there are also bad days smells like pig's poo.

It is so fun!dont know what to expect and what im gonna get.

Cheers to the gift of future undertaking. U took my breathe away.

Do yu know

2010-10-23T04:08:00.000-07:00

Vulnerable women are dangerous,

Cruel to be awesome!

2010-10-22T20:25:00.000-07:00

there are 100 billions people in the world, if i wrote something about 'you', it cOuld be anyone. nOt just you or you.or you or that you, it might be for the rest of billions peops in this whole wide world, unless ur nama is written down there. sLightly chances it could be you. funny la some people, darn. ok ByE, im excited to date with my books, wah finally,

Hayls yu take me higher

2010-10-21T07:10:00.000-07:00

now i wish im still infront of hayls swinging. ive nothing to care, less to think. screaming crazily like i dont givadamn shit. rocking with strangers. so fun. now more suckyy days. F. or maybe its just the scary part of final. what if my course im taking now, its not what i want. what if what i have now, is not what i want. to the hell besabar. now, i rebel.

before words turn into something stupid. i better stop now. rainbows, i know ur out there. come to me.

ps, finals. im screwed big tyme.

I rebel

2010-10-21T06:58:00.001-07:00

skys is the limit

2010-10-21T04:07:00.000-07:00

yu are okay

2010-10-21T03:27:00.000-07:00

i dont know y, everytime i listen to bruno mars singing just the way yu are, sebak dada.

too sweet it makes me cry.

today is a long day

2010-10-20T07:44:00.000-07:00

do not give shits to me. or ill give yu triple mac shit :)

weeeeeeeeeeeee

2010-10-20T07:42:00.000-07:00

paramore was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!! hayley williams standing eye to eye infront of me.

yeah baby, yu turn me on :)

blahhh

2010-10-20T07:39:00.000-07:00

twist your story. twist it until it become more delicious than the twister from kfc.

yu can do it. lets twist! nots. some will not stop giving shits. *too much to eat huh? harhar

tadaaaa

2010-10-20T07:38:00.001-07:00

now yu know how it feels, welcome to my world, yu bitch :)

sup suppp :)

2010-10-20T07:20:00.000-07:00

hey love

2010-10-20T07:14:00.000-07:00

carry me home

2010-10-20T07:12:00.000-07:00

sup dog?

2010-10-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

with love

2010-10-18T05:45:00.000-07:00

salmi's 21st today, suprise party was superb :) afteer i was so emotional bad temper this morning with those 2 goddamn test, naseb can answer properly, tomorrow got 1more test, n after my english presentation about apostacy IM GONNA GO MEET HAYLEYYY WILLIAMSSSSSS! WOHOOOOOOOOOO, n sadly the next morning another test, BUT I DONT CARE, HAYLEY LOVE, YU GONNA ROCK MY ASS TOMOROWWWW :) and replacement class on thursday n friday. there goes my study week just like that. then come final. i CAN DO IT! HAVING THE STRONGEST AND POSITIVE FAITH EVER! SEE YU AT THE FINISH LINE, WISH ME LUCKKK :)

hey barbie doll

2010-10-16T07:13:00.001-07:00

the thing about blog is, yu usually use them to spread your sick emotion. seldom i used it to express my gratitude. but not this entry. i would like to say, i am so happy today. and when i smile, the whole world stop. and i am amazing just the way i am :)

ps: hope my dream to see hayley williams come true :) cheers.

Y no? Y not yes?

2010-10-15T10:17:00.000-07:00

i admit. it is broken. hold on more. try harder. i will pass time.

i marathon against the time.

oh my oh myy

2010-10-13T08:28:00.001-07:00

eyuwwww yekkk, disgusting as hell.

2010-10-13T07:22:00.001-07:00

2010-10-13T07:12:00.000-07:00

it was all just a dream T.T

f f f fcuk

2010-10-13T05:08:00.000-07:00

i wont forgive yu till the day i die

go love go

2010-10-12T05:41:00.000-07:00

check out. go naked. wear the most sexiest mind, be brave. be bold, be out of control. be the adrenaline junkie. let urself go and scream ALL IS WELL!

ice ice baby

2010-10-12T05:28:00.000-07:00

swimming n subway, im addicted, every stroke every lap im addicted in losing some stim ;)

halo

2010-10-11T16:32:00.000-07:00

sometimes in life yu wanted the most sick thing in the world that pumping up ure adrenaline rush, but its the fantasy, we say lets go back to reality, and it'll be easier n simple, but where all the excitement go? numb as it is, Zzzzzzzz

remedies

2010-10-11T16:29:00.000-07:00

it was the pouring rain that keeps my joys aaaawayyy, hold on a lil bit longer, hold on be bold, ive done it so many times, why nervous now? i shall succeed with love up in the air, heart be nice,

superman

2010-10-11T08:20:00.001-07:00

it was the look on his face that make me change, i love that man, that man is my dad,

hey doll

2010-10-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

yu spend your whole life making excuses for the other half, we live in denial, the most uneasy feeling just like when the time yu hav to pretend to like corporate finance, yeah baby i hate it bad, but nothing i can do bout it except to hold on a lil bit more so that i pass, Daym. how can emosi be intepret into this subject i hate, wOW very ilmiah, i hate this uneasy thingy just like i hate F CF. now bertenang and repeat. i shall not flunk my CF paper. ulang seribu kali. AMIN,

Heart spoken

2010-10-11T04:49:00.000-07:00

If i could hold on a lil more, i could just hav d sufficient amount of jovial i desire inside.
I pray for Rainbows after heavy rain. I will not satisfy with what i have.
I will only satisfy with what i want.

I start writing

2010-10-10T06:39:00.000-07:00

im addicted to good movies. that sometimes it carries me away. i play pretend that im in their shoes.so that i wont have to admit how sucks i am feeling at certain moment, love me if yu dare. true definition of an awesome movie that lie straight to our face. BRAVO,

i dnt dream yu

2010-10-10T06:34:00.000-07:00

may i find a man, who wanted to marry me infront of the Kaabah, with only al quran as the hantaran, and i stay there with lots of babies, make it 13 babies, may my wish come true, i try purdah, and stay there till the day i die, bye, SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU, EVERYONE, 10.10.10,